Zero Energy PSA


I've been away a while. Granted, I did literally go out of the country for a bit, but that's not the majority of why I haven't been posting. Frankly, I haven't had the mental capacity or energy. That's in part due to a hormone disorder I have called hypothyroidism. It started effecting me around 19 and while I improved a lot with treatment, it turns out I haven't actually geared up to the necessary dose I need. Basically my body doesn't have enough thyroid levels so I have to take synthetic versions to make up for what I lack, and apparently I'm not taking enough. Luckily, I have recently found this out, and plan on gearing up my dosage with my doctor so that I can function better.

Hypothyroidism causes a host of things including muscle and joint weakness and soreness, dry skin, lethargy, fatigue, memory loss, hair loss, slowed heart beat... basically it makes everything about you feel very slow. I used to think it was really normal to just want to be asleep all the time but apparently people genuinely enjoy being awake most of the time. Who knew! (Not me, obviously.) My condition was really severe in college so in comparison, I totally thought I had this handled, but this just goes to show that "better" is very relative. I'm really excited because this means that all that fatigue and depression that I have been dealing with will improve a lot just by taking a pill every day! And you know, all the other symptoms too, but the fatigue and depression are going to be the big game-changers for me.

I say all this to let you know a few things:

Firstly, if you are having these problems, too, go get tested for hypothyroidism-- it's a super simple blood test and it's very very treatable. It's especially common in women. I wonder how many of my peers have this disorder without knowing and haven't yet found ways to deal with their depression or general tiredness. (PS: Your depression might have multiple causes which could include this or a host of other things. It might not be just one thing and that's okay! Work with a doctor to figure out how you can manage your own unique stuff.) I bet a lot of us are totally ignoring our suspicions and/or blaming ourselves like I did for a while in college, thinking I was just useless. More recently I totally suspected a lot of my hair was falling out but I have so much hair (my ponytail is 3 times thicker than most people's) I thought "maybe this is just proportional." Turns out, nah. My initial "oh my god am I dying??" every time a wad of hair shed off me was... well obviously not completely warranted-- I'm a pretty dramatic person, let's be real-- but correct in my gut instinct that something was Not Right.

Secondly, I am totally going to continue blogging and hopefully making youtube content as well. It's just been super hard with all this going on, but I'm not giving up on this. I'm just really, really tired. Most notably from this, but there are other changes in the world of Harper that take precedence over this blog. Hopefully I will have more energy within the next few months and get back on schedule!

Thirdly, I will eventually get all my content up about my trip to Europe and other things. In the meantime however, you can follow me on Twitter and Instagram, which are much more manageable for me at the moment. I'm @harperyi on both.


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